To cool for school

I am in my second year of school at the University of Phoenix. WOW! It is definitely an experience I shall not forget. Going through school I was always like, as soon as I hit 12th and graduate I ain't doing school no more. LOL yea right, that is the only way to get ahead in life. Sure it can be expensive but isn't it worth it? I wish I would have gone straight out of high school sometimes, it probably would not have been UofP but something. 

Anyway I just got done with my human systems assignment, making a 10-12 powerpoint and 2 systems ( I chose the nervous and cardiovascular systems) with speaker notes and images. I did it in about 2 hours without studying ha ha! and half the time was just finding the right images I wanted to use. My point is I feel so much more accomplished going to school, I am more educated for sure and I have this sense that I am really doing something to secure a better future for my family.  And let's not forget the discipline, I take online courses and let me tell you it takes focus and discipline to do it online, there is no one to keep you inline or anything, its all on you to get it done for the most part. 

I look forward to learning and honestly as I get older I want to learn more. Medical assistant, visual arts programmer (gamin), pilot (helicopter), I gotta learn how to surf, and loads more. When it comes it comes because I know first thing is first. 

School isn't always easy but isn't your future worth it?

Being a Father.

There are times in life that you are really put to the test. And it isn't so much the text itself but the way you handle it.

Yesterday I was in the hospital for about 6 hours with me daughter, who is only 15months, she had a bad accident on a chair and gashed her finger. While I'll call 911 my wife was frantic. I tried to calm her down but that was a failed attempt. Just keep some pressure, I said to her while I got some ice. 911 called over the fire department and an ambulance, they wrapped her hand and asked if I wanted to take her to the ER or prefer they would. Let's think about this, ummm you do it, get her down there STAT.

So they take off and I am following shortly, getting the bag ready and my son dressed and trying to clean up. When I arrive I see that they are sitting in the children's section of the hospital and my daughter is sitting quietly. I thought maybe they gave her something. WRONG, it was new bandage and it was getting saturated with blood. I mean how many hours does it take for this shit to be done with. I can see that if there are other injuries that may be more serious but come on this is an infant. What really pisses me off is when the nurse comes down to help change the bandage and clearly sees blood squirting out of the finger, UMM I'M NO DOCTOR BUT I'M PRETTY SURE THAT IS A BAD THING.

Fuck they pissed me off so much. Sometimes I feel like going to med school just to take care of my kids. Well a few hours later she was stitched up and we got out of there. Now she has a sock over her hand to prevent her from attacking the wrapping, luckily it isn't that bad and should heal properly, but there may be a little cosmetic surgery to fix the damage.

What this has taught me is that being a father you need to be a super hero, the ones you see out of movies and not the ones out of comics. Cool, calm, and collected is going to beat out frantic any day. Being a parent in any case is such a special thing, we sometimes forget  how much of an impact they have on our lives. Take the ER waiting room for example,  I was ready to start knocking things over to get her attention. It just is crazy to realize what we would really do as parents when given the situation.

I love my kids, and I would do anything for them.

Nava-who?

How many of you know a second language? 3rd? 4th?

Sadly I was not given the opportunities that would leave me to be fluent in my native language of Spanish, although I try. I did the whole Spanish thing in high school and I got a B average, I would talk to my gramps and he would teach me to, the real Spanish not the formal shit you learn that no one really uses anymore. So there is that excuse.

Now I am super pumped to get Rosetta stone in Spanish. For those of you who never have heard of Rosetta stone check it out, it simple put is an amazing tool for learning a language that essentially immerses you in the language rather than memorize a bunch of words.

Now off subject for a second. I am also Apache, black foot tribe I have been told and from what my grandma used to say I am also in direct lineage of the famous Geronimo. I have been trying to learn more about that heritage but it seems the details are obscure and or not available at all. But what little I have read is that Navajo and Apache are pretty much the same, with the same language, being southwestern Athabaskan. So I decided to take it upon myself to learn my native tongue.
Sadly it is a dieing language, only 5% of youths can speak it in this culture.

In efforts to save this dieing language, Rosetta stone has started this program to save languages such as Navajo, they use donations to study and analyze the written and spoken words. Which is actually more of a feat than a task since most elders do not now the basics of how it came to be just stories their parents told them.

My point is that we all have heritage, some way or another we are in a giant cauldron of racial diversity. We all could benefit from learning more about our history. What is that saying? Those who don't know learn from their past are doomed to repeat it.

I am looking forward to getting Rosetta stone Navajo, I feel great about myself, preserving a language that has been around for so long. I plan to teach my kids.

knowledge is power.

So sue me?

Ok, I know I said I would write one a day but i'm sure you are all with me on this one.

So I am picking up my son from school right? And there is a a pathway that we all park right next to the gates where our kids come out, right in the middle is where the gate is. This bitch  always likes to park right in the middle regardless if there is no one in front of her, ARG! MOVE UP!!!!!

Anyway, she drives the route that I drive home, it is not on the main streets but on the side streets. Today I notice her riding this guys ass, and I am talking just a few feet, keep in mind that this was a Chevy Cobalt and she is driving some kind of SUV. Well I drive an SUV too and I hate when people do that crap. So what did I decide to do? Get on her ass,  I drove so dam close I swear if you were on the hood you could touch her car, sorry SUV.

But she would manage to pull away sometimes  and at every stop there was something in my head that just said "don't break, just keep going" Grand theft Auto, how I wish I could do what I do in that world. Some times it should be done, call it vigilante you are really pissing me off.

In any case, I don't condone the GTA method, just load the game and take all your frustrations on the civilian on the side walks, then the police, then see how long it takes to get to 6 stars. hehe. BAM!

All for the money!

Ok let's talk about music.

Now I am not the type that goes to bars and clubs and really listens to local music, but being in my band I hear local when i'm playing, some are good some are crap. What I have noticed is that the crap bands that talk about beer, sex, and other nonsense seem to get the crowd riled up (usually when they are already drunk I am assuming). So what! They sounds horrible, do I need to just randomly scream "LETS GET DRUNK MOTHER FUCKERS!!!!!" and all of a sudden the band will go big??

Thats the problem with the music industry, not only it is over run with pop music and rap (which to me is just a rant with a beat) but any original music out there is few and far between. Take a look at who is popular, when I have the radio on I honestly feel like i'm listening the same crap over and over and over again. There are only a few bands that sounds different, Shinedown is one of them and they are newer, 5 finger death punch had that one good song, umm...thats all I can think of.

What about good original music, bands that don't copy themselves from another band, yes I am talking about bands like Tribal Path, bands that are what they are and may sounds similar to other bands, you can't really compare them (and no we do not sounds like maroon 5).

The music industry is so involved in looking at this like a business, which it is, but they just want what is going to make them money and do not want to take the risk.
That shit just really bothers me, now unique bands have to work ten times as hard as some crap band that sings about sex, drugs, and rock and roll.

What the music scene needs is a jolt of freshness, a new attitude on what music should sound like none of that pop culture. I am not saying that all of that pop is bad, I like Perry and.... well thats all I can think of at this moment.

Point is we all could do ourselves some justice in rediscovering older bands. Earth, Wind, and Fire is a great band, Kool and the gang is another, and what about the Bee Gees, the Beatles, Primus, Black Sabbath, old school Red Hot Chili Peppers, Pat Benatar, Heart ( I love Baracuda), Mountain, some Pearl Jam, the stray cats (now known as the Brian setzer group), and give me some more Muse too.

I don't know, it is what it is I guess, I hope it changes.
Don't be a puppet by the media, if you like something then you like it, shit when I was a kid people were listening to the backstreet boys while me and my buddies were listening to Queen, FREDDY!. Just because its popular doesn't mean its good. Love what you love and don't be afraid.

Really America?

ok, so I sitting on the computer and I hit the Youtube channels for some video surfing. I start watching something from machinema, which I cancelled my subscription from them cause they send like 10 videos a day, anyway, I am watching this expo of some sort with new tech and services and I see "The House of Marley", I don't care who you are but Marley had it right and I wish more people had point of view in the world. One love man, one love. lets get together and feel alright.

of course they probably are insinuating that weed is a tool used for the facilitation of diverse communications similar to how the native americans use the peace pipe. But thats what its all about anyway right? Getting to know a one another and forgetting all this political bullshit that isnt really necessary anyway. When it all comes down to it the leaders in this world are in a global "who's got the bigger stick" mess. They all have their countries to lead but when shit starts to happen they try the diplomatic solution, meaning they have to talk but what they really want to do is kick some ass.

Now at that point right there I am a bit divided. Part of me wishes that people would stop the violence and get along, work together, and learn to act under one house regardless of origin or belief (which probably mean a sudden advancement of the human race), but the realistic part of me knows that this "dream" is just that, a dream, and the likelyhood that any kind of world peace is applicable in our life time would be complete nonsense. While I am not one for war, I wish America was like it was back in the old days. Kicking ass and taking names, but now it seems much more obscure. I mean back then when someone fucked with us we came and and took a shit on them, take Pearl Harbor for example, Roosevelt was like nah fuck that bomb their asses, they shouldn't have messed with us. Now I know what you're saying, if we start shit then they will and nukes go every and destroy the whole world. I am not saying lets go bomb anyone that gives us a dirty look what I mean is the attitude that was there is gone and it's what we need.

I however am I thinker rather than a doer, I would not be on the front lines that is just something that I cannot see myself doing, but more of the logistics of things I could, that was off subject but it just kinda came up.

My feeling is that there will be another world war in our life time, and America needs to get its shit together. No more bullshit.

(Australia here I come)

Damn you Myspace

Ok so if you don't know I am going to school for software engineer at the University of Phoenix. Well I had to discuss webpages and designing or updating existing ones. I thought about it and realized Myspace was a prime candidate, my good friend also tells me he never gets messages sent out or received. So here is what I wrote.

I did some thinking and I figure that there are a lot of sites out there that could always improve or upgrade, but what about going over that line into information or graphic overload? Myspace, as i'm sure everyone knows about, is one of those social sites, reconnect with friends and family or browse through people and bands and make new friends. One thing that has turned me away from Myspace is the fact that it is way too busy. I would definitely improve the design of this site by limiting the amount of graphics and information that are on the page, it seems that it was made for people with ADD or something. Restructure the backbone so I don't feel like I am looking at an atlas of the web. Not only are there too many graphics (thank you ads and sponsors) but there also seems to me to be an unordered way that the pages flow. It almost seems to me that they just would fit it where they could and it takes me a few minutes to find my pictures. Ordered lists that are on the same spot every time would be great, bulletins or whatever doesn't matter I just think having it anchored would attract more than the teenagers who drink redbulls or monster energy drinks all day.